What does it take to break a Dominant’s heart to the point of no return?

Disobedience. Hateful words. Doubt. Mistrust. Lack of communication. Selfishness. Short sightedness.

Taking the trust that your Dominant once gave selflessly to you and turning it against them in the most hateful way possible.

In the midst of my own pain and frustration, I took my Dominant’s actions for rejection and lashed out. My intentions were to hurt Him, to inflict the same pain I was feeling onto the person who mattered the most to me.

Which brings us here. To my “Acts of Contrition”.

Since using my Dominants faith against him, I have sought experienced mentors in the BDSM community to help me find a way to heal what I have broken. I’ve accepted that my own actions have brought my Dominant to this breaking point. Together, my mentor and I developed my Acts of Contrition. Daily tasks/assignments meant to explore my weaknesses, mistakes, and to really challenge what submission has meant to me in the past. Ways to serve my Dominant daily in order to rebuild the trust that I so easily destroyed. Ways to develop a more peaceful, unbreakable bond with Him.

There is no guarantee this will work. My Dominant has been pushed to his limit by my own behavior. But in losing Him, I have learned that there will never be another for me. He is my ONE. It took breaking up for me to realize what true submission really means. In order to share that with Him, I must find a way to bring Him back to his position as my true Dominant.

I cannot ask for his forgiveness. I can only beg for him to allow me to show him daily that I will serve him as he never thought possible.